It has been a strange month, there’s been good days and bad days, but despite my best laid plans I’ve been letting the bad days dwell on me more than I probably should considering the good days actually outnumbered them.
Family and friends have been really supportive, something I’ll always be grateful for, but, me being me, I tend to get over reliant on others at times like this. Everyone needs a support system around them, I don’t deny that, but there’s a difference between accepting help when you truly need and becoming dependent on others to get you through even the simplest of things. It’s a fine line and one that I’m very close to crossing so it’s time for a change.
For various reasons, I won’t bore you all with the details that I haven’t already shared, my life has been on hold for far too long. I have hopes, dreams and ambitions but unless I actually take steps to do something about them then there’s not much point in having them.
No one is going to do these things for me and opportunities don’t just fall out of the sky, I need to feel the fear and do it anyway. Yes I know it seems obvious but, believe me, this was actually a much needed revelation over the weekend.
Don’t get me wrong, there’s every possibility that I’ll still make mistakes, in fact if a recent incident is any indication then it’s pretty much a certainty that I’ll screw up sometimes. What I’m hoping to change is how I react when this happens. Instead of over analysing, panicking and generally making things seem worse than they may have actually been, I’m going to focus on picking myself up, dusting myself off and carrying on.
Hopefully I’ll learn a thing or two in the process!